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I don’t expect people to understand or empathize with what we deal with as addicts in recovery. How could they? But I wish people understood the difficulty recovery can add to things. My brain tells me to use as soon as things don’t go as planned or there is any frustration. I have much more control now, but it still happens and I still have to deal with it on top of life. Life in itself is a lot to handle. Add working a recovery program with not knowing what is coming next, and you get anxiety on top of anxiety. I could always take the easy route. That would get me nowhere. Well, it would get me somewhere. Dead.

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change—the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.