I have been struggling with accountability. I want to stick to my routine yet I find myself stuck in the old habit of procrastination. I’m not sure how I can break this cycle but I definitely need too. I have been trying to remember to write in my journal. I just can’t wait to getContinue reading “A Long Time Coming”
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90 Days
I honestly didn’t think I would ever stop using again. I had justified my drug use as a solution to my mental health diagnosis. I was completely comfortable with being a heroin/fentanyl addict. I would say things like “everybody does something,” that is how I would chase away the honesty. I could not be honestContinue reading “90 Days”
Back to the Basics
I remembered to sign up for my home group today!!!! I forgot two weekends in a row lol. These gloomy days make it hard to get motivated and start the day. Especially on the weekends, I just wanted to lay in the bed this morning. But then my “mental drill sergeant” shows up and kicksContinue reading “Back to the Basics”
My Reminder
Every morning when I wake up and as I’m starting my day. I thank Jehovah I don’t have to use today. For so long I was asking God to help me get through the day and find money to get well. It is so allaying to know that I don’t have to manipulate every interactionContinue reading “My Reminder”
Day by Day
Things have been everything but simple this last week. We went from a townhouse to a hotel room in 2 days. It definitely threw me for a loop to say the least. Now I am trying to make the best of where I am. It could most definitely be a lot worse. I keep remindingContinue reading “Day by Day”
Tired
I am tired as hell. Or, as SOLO 4 would say, I’M TIIIIEEEDDD 😂😂😂😂. I have my computer so technically I could be posting this on the website and not in the app. But the app is pretty functional. I have to give Word Press credit for having an app that works incredibly well!! TodayContinue reading “Tired”
Blink Of An Eye
In a flash everything in my life can change. I can literally go from peak to valley in seconds. What I can say today is that I have the mental clarity to look for and find a solution. For that I am grateful. With the help of Narcotics Anonymous and with everything I experienced inContinue reading “Blink Of An Eye”
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Days. Hours. Minutes. Seconds. God’s will. My purpose. Is not my question. It is guaranteed. Self reflect. Turn it over. Enjoy life in recovery. Trust what’s next. Living life on life’s terms. First step. I am powerless.
One Day At A Time
YEEEERRRR!!!! Happy Sunday people!!!! I slept in again today but I didn’t have any drug dreams thank Jehovah!! Pretty Girl got me some Starbucks cold brew yesterday. It’s pretty good but I need to find something cheaper lol. Yesterday was a great day. I went to two great meetings and kicked it around the houseContinue reading “One Day At A Time”
Dreams and Nightmares
I slept in this morning. But I also regret not waking up as usual. Those extra hours of sleep allowed my brain enough time to concoct a series of insanely vivid drug dreams. I find myself angry at my brain. I know that it gets better. I know by staying sober I can make itContinue reading “Dreams and Nightmares”
Transformed By Truth 