I was at a meeting last week and someone shared about making amends to themselves. I started listening and then I thought to myself. Have I truly forgiven me for the havoc and pain I inflicted on multiple people for various lengths of time. I honestly never thought about truly forgiving myself. Apologizing to myContinue reading “Closing Time”
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Response vs Reaction
As I was thinking of a title. I thought to myself if there is truly a difference between the two words RESPOND and REACT. To RESPOND is to say something in return or make an answer. REACTION can be defined as the resistance or opposition to a force, influence, or movement. When I come toContinue reading “Response vs Reaction”
Truly Being True
Recovery has opened a new creative avenue for me. I have been rapping for a long time and constantly tried to be true to me in my music while staying relevant and still making music I thought people would want to listen too. I will never say something that isn’t true in a song. I’mContinue reading “Truly Being True”
Time Off
YEEEERRR!!!! I appreciate your patience. I know I can be a bit sporadic with my posts. I am trying to be more consistent but to be honest I’m having trouble allowing this space to be truly personal. It is incredibly difficult to truly let myself be vulnerable on the internet. Regardless of what the metricsContinue reading “Time Off”
Growth
For a long time I wasn’t a fan of jazz. I find it interesting that as I age I am becoming more interested in things I had not fervour for when I was younger. Jazz used to put me to sleep. Now I can appreciate the talent it takes to compose and create the phenomenalContinue reading “Growth”
A Long Time Coming
I have been struggling with accountability. I want to stick to my routine yet I find myself stuck in the old habit of procrastination. I’m not sure how I can break this cycle but I definitely need too. I have been trying to remember to write in my journal. I just can’t wait to getContinue reading “A Long Time Coming”
90 Days
I honestly didn’t think I would ever stop using again. I had justified my drug use as a solution to my mental health diagnosis. I was completely comfortable with being a heroin/fentanyl addict. I would say things like “everybody does something,” that is how I would chase away the honesty. I could not be honestContinue reading “90 Days”
Three A Days
I have to write every day. It is how I get a lot of the little things off my mind. I didn’t write and I missed a meeting on Monday. I was irritated. I was thinking, I can find a ride from The Park to meetings in Leonardtown. But can’t find a ride from LovevilleContinue reading “Three A Days”
Day by Day
Things have been everything but simple this last week. We went from a townhouse to a hotel room in 2 days. It definitely threw me for a loop to say the least. Now I am trying to make the best of where I am. It could most definitely be a lot worse. I keep remindingContinue reading “Day by Day”
Tired
I am tired as hell. Or, as SOLO 4 would say, I’M TIIIIEEEDDD 😂😂😂😂. I have my computer so technically I could be posting this on the website and not in the app. But the app is pretty functional. I have to give Word Press credit for having an app that works incredibly well!! TodayContinue reading “Tired”
Transformed By Truth 