I honestly didn’t think I would ever stop using again. I had justified my drug use as a solution to my mental health diagnosis. I was completely comfortable with being a heroin/fentanyl addict. I would say things like “everybody does something,” that is how I would chase away the honesty. I could not be honestContinue reading “90 Days”
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Mommies Day
I miss Momma Bro literally every day. Today I can say with complete honesty I know my Mom is proud of me. I have been through a lot. To still be here standing on the values my Mother instilled in me is a truly miraculous feeling. I know I put my Mom through literal hell.Continue reading “Mommies Day”
Back to the Basics
I remembered to sign up for my home group today!!!! I forgot two weekends in a row lol. These gloomy days make it hard to get motivated and start the day. Especially on the weekends, I just wanted to lay in the bed this morning. But then my “mental drill sergeant” shows up and kicksContinue reading “Back to the Basics”
Tired
I am tired as hell. Or, as SOLO 4 would say, I’M TIIIIEEEDDD 😂😂😂😂. I have my computer so technically I could be posting this on the website and not in the app. But the app is pretty functional. I have to give Word Press credit for having an app that works incredibly well!! TodayContinue reading “Tired”
Blink Of An Eye
In a flash everything in my life can change. I can literally go from peak to valley in seconds. What I can say today is that I have the mental clarity to look for and find a solution. For that I am grateful. With the help of Narcotics Anonymous and with everything I experienced inContinue reading “Blink Of An Eye”
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Days. Hours. Minutes. Seconds. God’s will. My purpose. Is not my question. It is guaranteed. Self reflect. Turn it over. Enjoy life in recovery. Trust what’s next. Living life on life’s terms. First step. I am powerless.
One Day At A Time
YEEEERRRR!!!! Happy Sunday people!!!! I slept in again today but I didn’t have any drug dreams thank Jehovah!! Pretty Girl got me some Starbucks cold brew yesterday. It’s pretty good but I need to find something cheaper lol. Yesterday was a great day. I went to two great meetings and kicked it around the houseContinue reading “One Day At A Time”
Dreams and Nightmares
I slept in this morning. But I also regret not waking up as usual. Those extra hours of sleep allowed my brain enough time to concoct a series of insanely vivid drug dreams. I find myself angry at my brain. I know that it gets better. I know by staying sober I can make itContinue reading “Dreams and Nightmares”
FriYAAAAYYYY
IT’S FRIIIDDAAYYY!!!! It is crazy how fast the days of the week go by. I love looking forward to going to a meeting. I don’t really do much right now because I don’t want to overwhelm myself. Especially being in early recovery. The smallest things can set me off track. I k now I needContinue reading “FriYAAAAYYYY”
On The Move
YEEEERRRR!!!! What up eerybody!! Hope all is well and your morning is GLORIOUS!! I’m currently on the slowest public transportation system known to man 😂😂😂😂. I’m making my way to my IOP intake. I was at the bus stop and I had a light bulb moment. I didn’t post this morning and I really don’tContinue reading “On The Move”
Transformed By Truth 