Thinking

I find myself thinking a lot about choices I make on a daily basis. The just for today said something I have to pray about constantly. The things I cannot change and the strength and wisdom to change what I can. I’m human so I have bad habits. I have been trying to be mindful so I can eliminate the things I don’t like and focus more on what brings me true happiness. It has been a long week. I have been working for the first time in some years and it has been hard to manage my recovery and maintain my routine. The only person to blame for the trouble I have been having is me. Today I feel much better. I went to sleep a bit earlier last night. I’m hoping to get in bed even earlier tonight. These are things I can control to improve the quality of my life. So easily I forget that I am in control of my life and the choices I make. I have always struggled with over thinking things. I try my best to not let my brain psych me out of doing something that I truly enjoy. Every day I work on regaining control of my life. I have to constantly be mindful that I am the only obstacle stopping me from reaching the finish line. No I don’t want to go to bed at 2130 so I am rested at 0500 when I wake up but it is necessary. No I don’t want to wake up and exercise every morning. But it makes me feel good and helps me clear my mind and start producing positive thoughts. Things like this I can control to improve my quality of life. Today I am working on not letting my brain stop me from doing things I enjoy or speaking my mind and sharing my story. The only person that suffers is me. My constant overanalyzing can be a severe handicap if I let it. I control my brain. My brain doesn’t control me.

Every day I work to be better than the man I was yesterday. In order for a seed to grow, it must completely destroy itself. I have to change every aspect of my life if I want to evolve into the best man I can be. To get something I’ve never had, I will have to do something I’ve never done.

For the still sick and suffering I pray. Please reach out to someone and get help. We love you and recovery is possible!!!!

Today is a new day. I will be better today than I was yesterday and I will take advantage of every opportunity I find to grow, learn and become the man I want to be. WE DO RECOVER!!!!