LongWinded

I know I take a long time to post. Don’t judge me. I hope all is well and the universe is treating you with kindness. Things with me are pretty much the same. Feeling good. Trying to grow in some way every day. I have been working on new music and uploaded a video to my YouTube. Pop bought us a Honda Odyssey. That was hella clutch. It was hell getting from A to B. I hated trying to find rides to meetings and shii. I need to start calling my sponsor every day. I want to have a better relationship with him. I keep forgetting to send him the information he needs on being an independent artist. I should probably download some type of to do list app to remind me of stuff like that. I need to be more mindful so I don’t fall behind on certain things. I also need to be mindful of how much I procrastinate. I have a bad habit of procrastinating on things I need to get done. It happens often and is terrible when it comes to important stuff. There has to be some kind of app or something to help me remember what I have to do. I think that is one of my biggest character defects. I have a bad habit of putting things off and trying to rush to get them done at the last minute. You know what I haven’t tried yet is prayer. I will pray on it. Jehovah always helps the bro, I just have to be willing to ask for help and accept it. I have been trying to get back into my morning routine. Since I have been home I have completely fallen out of my routine. I wish waking up in the morning was easier. No matter how much sleep I get when I wake up I just want to go back to sleep lol. While trying to avoid procrastination and other bad habits, I have to remember to not be too hard on myself. I am undoubtedly guilty of saying things to myself I would never say to someone else. I can be savage when it comes to talking down to myself so I have to remember to be vigilant and never hesitate to give myself credit for how far I have come. Remembering all I have achieved helps me remember that as long as I am persistent, I try to grow every day and I have faith in my Higher Power I can do anything I set my mind too!!

If you or anyone you know is suffering from the disease of addiction or any kind of mental health issue. Please don’t hesitate to reach out and get help. There are people who want to help you get better and I promise, it gets better. Don’t suffer in silence. Please talk to someone!!!!

God,

Grant me the serenity. To accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.